So, I'm a little behind......
Frankly, I have a lot of stuff to blog about right now, but I will try to finish this thing since I already started. My last attempts at this have been epic fails, so maybe I can try this and actually complete it.
So my eight fears.....hmmm....tricky.
1. Airplanes
Scare me half to death.
Don't like them one bit.
Need cocktails....
The smaller the plane the worse it is.
This could stop me from traveling long distances because my fear keeps getting worse with every flight.
Australia might never happen...boo.
2. Accidents
So, we don't need a picture here. I constantly worry about blowing out a tire, or sliding, or pretty much anything. I also hate when other people drive Lilly, makes me a little crazy.
3. Wrinkles
I don't want to get them, I don't want anything to do with them. It a product says anti-wrinkle I will more than likely buy it. I'm also a sucker for any kind of facial and mega sunscreen. Ladies, lets face it, going to the tanning bed is soooooo high school, and baking in the sun will just make you look really bad by the time you're 50. Lather up on the SPF!!! Go the fake bake route instead. You will thank me in the long run.
4. Bad foods
I love them. I would love to eat a can of spaghetti o's every day, or sonic for lunch like I did in high school. But no. When I do I feel sooooo, overwhelmingly guilty, and it's just not worth it. Don't get me wrong, I certainly indulge, but it scares me because I would eat crappy food every day if I could. So I just stay away....does that qualify as a fear?
5. Mice
That's why I will always have a cat. Enough said.
6. Daycare
As a past SAHM, the thought of putting Lilly in daycare from 7 am to 6 pm just kills me. It may be a reality for me, I don't know, but if that's the case, she will have a nanny some days and be home. I don't think being a kid should be a full time job. No offense to the kids that are in daycare, but I have a little bit of an overwhelming attachment to my little love so this causes me much anxiety. Might be a reality soon, we'll see, she'll survive, and I'll get over it. I'll cross that bridge when I get there......
7. Losing family
The only people that i've lost are my grandparents and that was terrible. It is such a huge fear of mine that it literally makes me naush thinking about losing my loved ones.
8. Trust
Lets face it. I have been through some BS CRAP. The kind of crap that would make your jaw drop to the floor in utter disgust. Mean, horrible, disgusting, exhausting, and painful things and not just from one person, from an entire family. I know now that people are not always what they seem to be and time does not make you know someone fully. You can be with someone for 10 years, or 10 weeks, and still not know who they really are and the demons that fill their brains. Because of this, my biggest fear is trusting people. I get the comment "not ALL guys are freaks" or "not everyone is capable of doing things like that" or "you couldn't make that stuff up, so why do you think it would happen again?" Still. It's hard.
Lets see if I make it to day 7. What is day 7???
