The question

How am I doing....this is the question I get asked daily.  How am I doing?  Hmmm, good question.

I am doing OK.  I suppose maybe better than expected, I am hanging in there.  My anniversary is New Years Eve, funny huh?  Four years.  Why?  Seemed like such a perfect date, but now, I don't know.  It just rubs it in even more.  I remember our wedding, I remember two years of pure happiness, but the other two constantly wondering what was really happening.  I spent an entire year picking out my wedding details, now it just seems like nonsense.  Is it bad that I still remember it like yesterday, my dress, my cake, my first dance?  It has ONLY been four years.

Christmas was great.  My family came down, and it really was such a great weekend.  However, reality isn't far off in my thoughts.  I pray, pray, pray.  I am convinced that there must be something out there that is so fabulous, so mind-blowing, because no person should have to go through this.  There has to be.....

All I know is that I am thankful.  My family, my friends, I couldn't do it without them.  Honestly, I don't know what I would do.  Right now, I am alone, but i'm OK because I have them.  My healthy baby is asleep in her bed, and that is my gift.  I am blessed in so many ways, yes, my life is changing, but I am so blessed.  Just look at that blue eyed angel, and you will see my joy.  But the question remains....how do you heal your heart?

I have been with Clint since I was 18, I am now 27.  I don't know why this happened, why people do the things they do, and I could go around and around in my head....but it won't matter.  I suppose I will never understand.  And truth be told, i've accepted that.  All I can do is look towards the future, 2010.  It has to be better, it must.  I want happiness, a life of love, trust, and no deceit and lies.  2010 has to have it, or at least some sort of sign that it exists.  I have faith that it will.

I know my blog is private now, which I hate, but I hope that every one of you had a great holiday.  I hope that every day you look at what you have and thank your lucky stars.  I certainly do.  God is so great.  He can work miracles, I am waiting on one, and I know he will show me soon.  I wish all of you a blessed, happy 2010.  I hope all your resolutions come true and you fulfill all your wishes.  I am certainly working on mine!

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Hello blogger friends....

I now have a Website, yay!!!  It is just in the beginning stages, but I am so excited.

www.dotsandbirdie.com

I have so much fun new spring stuff to put up for little girls so look for that coming soon!

Songs can heal the heart.

I call, you hear me

i've lost it all

And it's more than I can bear

I feel so empty

You're strong

I'm weary

I'm holdin' on

But I feel like givin' in

But still you're with me

And even though i'm walking through

the valley of the shadow

I will hold tight to the hand of Him

Whose love will comfort me

And when all hope is gone

And i've been wounded in the battle

He is all the strength that I will 

ever need

And he will carry me

I know i'm broken

But You alone

Can mend this heart of mine

You're always with me

And even though I feel so lonely

Like I have never been before

You never said it would be easy

But you said you'd see me through

the storm

And even though i'm walking through

the valley of the shadow

I will hold tight to the hand of Him

Whose love will comfort me

And when all hope is gone 

And i've been wounded in the battle

He is all the strength that I will 

Ever need

And he will carry me. 

Mark Schultz, He will carry me

MAKE THESE!!!

Calling all wanna be cooks like me, this is super easy and sooooooo delicious!   I tried one and i'm telling ya it's make you slap your momma good!   HA!!  Plus, it's a super easy recipe, i'm all about easy fun these days!  Here it is, get a pen, write it down, make them tonight, and thank me later....

Peanuty butterscotch mounds
1 entire jar of smuckers all natural peanut butter, stirred well
1 bag butterscotch chips
1 bag white chocolate chips
1 small bag of chopped nuts
3 bags crushed ramen noodles

Over medium heat, combine the peanut butter, butterscotch, and white chocolate.  Melt and stir well.  Be careful, don't burn it.  Add in the chopped nuts, stir.  Add in ramens, about one bag at a time.  Combine well.

Spoon small mounds on wax paper.  They take a while to mold, but sticking them in the fridge helps.

YOUR WELCOME PEOPLE!!!!!!!

Manly Christmas

I just made these Christmas onesies for a friend's sister who has triplet little boys!  I think they turned out sooooo stinkin cute.  These are three month onesies, but I can do the appliques on any size.  I do have some extra fabric and I can ship before Christmas too!

New holiday tradition

My mom got Lilly and I a gingerbread house to make this year, and she loved it!!  I was really unsure how she would do, due to her low attention span, but she did great!!  I did most of the decorating then she went back and added her own candies.  I think she ate most of them!

Here's the finished product!!  It will probably get stolen, along with her santa pics....

Lilly and mommy.

Another OSU grad!!

This Saturday my little sister graduated from OSU!!  I couldn't be prouder!  So now that makes three family OSU grads, well four actually....me, Nick, Lauren (she's practically family!), and now Emma!  It was a really special day and Lilly was a perfect angel.

I can't wait to watch Lilly graduate hopefully from here someday!  She's already got her pistols firing and loves singing about her cowboys!  Here is she in my medal that I received when I graduated.  Little cutie....

"You better watch out..."

"You better not cry (ok...well I guess you are allowed to cry when you're two years old on santa's lap) cause Santa Claus is coming to town!!!!"
Lilly girl doesn't quite get it yet....this man brings you lots of presents, cheer up little one! How freaking hilarious is this pic!!  May be the Christmas card, haven't quite gotten that far yet!

Ryder Man clearly does a little better, but not Lilly Poo...

I can not believe how big these kiddos are getting!!!  What a blessing it is for Lilly to have this little manly man in her life.  Now that our life is changing, it is so nice for her to have her little lover around all the time.

I kind if like him too, just a little....he melts my heart...

An update.

As many of you have heard, I am unfortunately going through a divorce.

I choose happiness.

I choose no lies, no betrayal.

I choose no more deception, no more hurt.

I choose a life full of promise, trust, honesty, and love.

As the holidays approach, Lilly and I need your prayers more than ever.  I pray every night with her, but any added prayers and thoughts would be greatly appreciated.

We are blessed to have each other and know the future is bright.  I am going private for sure and changing the blog very soon.  Please email me your information asap....molly.dunbar@hotmail.com.

 I know a lot of you may have questions, and I will tell you the the TRUTH.  Thank you for your love and support...it means the world to me.

OK....

I will be back soon, I promise.