I turned 28 on September 28! I thought that was pretty cool, but of course I get a kick out of weird things, ha. My day started off pretty good, we headed off to school like any other morning. When I got there my kiddos had decorated my room and when they came in they each brought me a card. The parents gave me a gift card to Mi Cocina and a box of my favorite candy, Reeses. I even got lunch brought to me and Starbucks giftcards. It was so amazing!! I really wasn't sure how to approach this birthday this year as things are a lot different than they were last year. However, my kids brought tears to my eyes and I felt so loved and so happy, it was the happiest I felt in so long, which I totally wasn't expecting. I am so immensely blessed to be teaching these kids and I just love their families. My birthday could have turned into a really down day for me, but instead it turned into one of the best days i've seen all year. :)
I decided that this year I really just wanted to get together with the people that mean the most here. I thought about having a big party, but I just didn't want to this year....very unlike me! So me, Emma, Sarah, and my two favorite babes headed to Houstons for some yumminess. It was so fun, just perfect and just what I needed. Sarah and Emma snapped these pics that I just love....
Sweet little loves.
It was such a great day and I decided that i'm going to look at this birthday as a new beginning for me. For so long now I have been thinking only about Lilly and what's best for her, and although that won't ever change, it's time to start thinking about what I want.
This has been a heartbreaking and devastating year for the both of us and we have been there for each other through every part. Although someday I will write about what happened so people who have been lied to can hear the truth, i'm not ready yet. I feel like i'm just starting to come into my own and regain my confidence that was so abruptly taken away. I am closer to God than I ever have been and it has made me realize that out of tragedy really can come amazing things. He has shown me people's true colors and instilled in my thoughts that I am an honest woman who stands by her convictions always. For that I am so much stronger than I ever have been. I am also very thankful that I don't have to deal with the things that had been consuming me for so long. These things are things that are so unbelievable that you would find it incredible that people would do this to the mother of their child/grandchild. Those toxic people are out of my life, thank you Lord. As far as finding love again, I am getting closer. Right after I filed for divorce I started talking to an old friend who helped me slowly get my confidence back. I still talk to him and since then I have dated some other guys. Some have been more serious than others, but I was hesitant about every one because of the damage on my heart. I recently decided to hand it over to God and since then I have had even more luck in that department, ha! I don't trust any of the people that hurt me so terribly, but I have forgiven them. However, I can't speak for any of the dozens of other people they have hurt, including one little lady.
So I am happy, and getting happier every day. I am blessed with my family and amazing friends, new and old. My job and co-workers are more than amazing and my little business is booming! It may even be going more mainstream, very exciting. Especially I have my little love, who makes me smile every day and lifts me up no matter what. I will always have to deal with mean words and hateful comments, but they will always just be mean people. I used to cry, but now I just laugh and say thank God I don't say things like that! So happy birthday to me, I hope this year is the best ever.
